I have a very wide idea of my personality. One major trait is that I’m very honest; even when I shouldn’t be. This can be considered a good and a bad thing. It would be a good thing because I won’t lie on how I feel on certain subjects, but when you need someone to lie on a subject that I have a strong opinion on I’m telling the truth. I do lie sometimes but mostly I tell it like I see it. Even though this is true I still care about people, even those I know that I don’t talk on an everyday basis. Especially when some one is down or they look distressed, I actually want to ask them if there okay. That reason is what also makes me considerate. I will say something and I realize it makes them feel bad so I’ll apologize. Even if I bump into someone (or something depending on the day) I say sorry because I feel it’s my fault. I trust others a lot. Even when other people say not to, I do. It’s a good thing that can go bad; for example that I put my trust in them and they disappoint me or try to harm my family or friends they lose my trust. I’m also forgiving and I believe in second and third chances, but if someone abuses this trait that I have they won’t see it often. I can also stubborn; it’s not a very good trait. This means if I know I’m right I often argue my point. I hate starting arguments, but when I know for a fact I’m right I will say something. I’ll try to control my self if I know the argument is getting nowhere though. I’m self-reliant. I like to do some things myself, not because I think I can do it better, I just feel better if I do it myself. One trait is reliability; I always try to help my family or friends. If I can’t I will refer someone who can help them and I also tell them why I can’t. Most of the time I’m bubbly. I can start a conversation with almost anyone. When it comes to sorting things I’m a perfectionist. I scold people for messing up my systems. Like at home I put can goods away, if someone else does it I have to redo it. The biggest one of all is that I’m random. I could be talking to my friends and be thinking of one thing and then say it even though the conversation is no where near what I changed the subject to. Even when someone else is talking on something I can think of some thing else just from a couple words. Or when I see something I blurt it out.
I’m both optimistic and pessimistic. I think of the positives when it comes to far future, creative projects, and serious life events. I start to think negative on test, quizzes, and what might go wrong in the near future. This impacts my life a lot. I might think one activity with friends would be fun, and then right before I think what things could go wrong with the plans. I also don’t believe that the picture of the glass and if you think it’s half empty you are pessimistic and if you think it’s half full you are optimistic. It always makes me wonder who drank half of my drink? I mean I always get a glass I fill it to the top. Now which of you did it?
I can put my trust in people even though there is a chance of disappointment I might receive from them. That might change when they steal from me or they start a malicious rumor of my family or someone I care about. I don’t care if they talk about me, fine whatever, but when some one messes with my family or my friends they have to deal with me. This is a major thing for survival; if someone trust someone no matter how many times that person has hurt them the could be killed (in caveman days/ or maybe even now). Being organized helps me survive. I need to know where things are, even when there is a pile of papers or clothes I know what’s in it incase I need it. If I’m disorganized I literally run around like a chicken with its head cut off. I start to stress if I can’t find my assignment or something important. It changes though when I’m in a project with someone else or a group. I still keep order to the information being used but I’m more relaxed and just want to finish the project instead of keeping it orderly. This adaptation allows anyone to stay focus on the bigger picture around them instead of on little things that are already in order.
One definite defense mechanism that I have done a lot is displacement. Displacement is where you shift sexual and aggressive impulses to a more acceptable outlet. When I’m mad at school or at my mother I take it out on my siblings. One time mother was saying how she is the only one doing something and yells at me even though I’m the one who did it the most I just busy with other things for a week. So I yell at my brother or younger brother for not helping out. He does help out when you ask nicely, so it’s not right but I used to do it a lot. Regression is another one I do a lot. Regression is where there is a temporary reversion of the ego to an earlier stage of development rather than handling unacceptable impulses in a more adult way. When someone uses something I love that I don’t want other people using I throw a fit. It’s so bratty and I don’t do it often. An example was yesterday my stepfather took my car instead of his truck up to Wausau, and when I asked why he didn’t tell me why but he told me my brake light was on and so was the engine light. I drove the car the day before everything with engine was fine. I got so mad I stomped up the stairs into the house and slammed the door and locked it, and pretty much scowled and ignored him all night. I probably looked like I was two, but I was so made. Suppression is one I do at school. Suppression is when you push a thought into your preconscious that is too stressful or strains your feelings. I ‘forget’ the deadlines for my College English papers because they stress me out. This being the major fact that I need this class the graduate.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
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